From Where I Sit
by Sister
Magdelene (Soror Lillith), Priestess E.G.C.
From
animatedhuman.com/lillith/
under Esoteric - 'Priestess for Gnostic Mass'
This article is intended to
describe some of my personal experience of Priestessing the
Gnostic Mass (Liber
XV). I hope that it will also provide some orientation to the experience
of communication for folks who feel suddenly lost or on the spot when it
comes their turn to approach the altar.
SO YOU HAVE COME TO MASS TO
COMMUNICATE... we will assume that you can walk well enough to ascend three
steps. But after that nothing will be taken for granted. Focus and center
yourself. Now climb those short three steps with confidence. Stand or kneel
as is your personal preference. Folks who officer the Mass as Priest seem to
prefer to kneel, but you can do whatever is most comfortable for you.
The cakes are on your right, the wine is on your left. The Goddess
is right in front of you, and within you. She is close enough to feel.
Now look at me. Really get a good look, you can even stare. Blinking is
allowed, but don't lose the contact. Look in my eyes, visually trace the
lines of my body. A naked woman must be worth a little of your time and
attention. Can you see my aura and the energy moving all around the altar?
Have a Cake of Light. Contemplate it for a moment, trace a cross with
it in the air if it seems the thing to do. Now look at me again while you
chew. Is there a special message for you in my smile or in my eyes? Is there
something you would like to say? Don't worry if you can't find your voice, I
can hear you anyway.
Would you like to touch me? Hold my hand, rest your fingertips on my
knee. Let me put my hand on your cheek or over you heart. We are moving
energy together, does your skin prickle? Do you feel warm or cool?
Have some wine. Trace a circle in the air with the Chalice if you are
accustomed to doing that. Drink it all please. Now have one last look. This
is your personal Goddess. She comes through me and from you. Bid her
farewell, perhaps a kiss on the cheek or on the hand. I am your mother, your
sister, your daughter, your lover, yourself.
Stand if you were kneeling. Please continue to face me, cross your arms
over your chest and say "There is no part of me that is not of the Gods!"
Now return to your seat. It is someone else's turn to affirm their
connection and sovereignty. Thank you for coming to Mass.
* * *
Not all Priestesses or Congregants would be comfortable with the
level of interaction I have described here. As a communicant you will have
to adjust and gage things to suit yourself and the Priestess you are
approaching. There are certainly other legitimate and functional styles to
Priestessing the Mass. Some are more distant, stoic, or removed than my own.
However, several Priestesses have told me that they would prefer more
eye contact than they get from congregants. Many people look down or away.
Perhaps because they are embarrassed, nervous, or from a sense of misplaced
courtesy, they were taught not to stare.
I find that visual and physical contact helps strengthen the
communication and interaction. I am sitting on that altar by free choice and
it is my job to be available to the communicant, to be open, channel energy
and manifest deity for them and from them. I expect to be looked at.
The Goddess form the Priest and I draw in and generate is consistent
and personal to us. She encompasses the temple and feeds the Priest energy
all during the ritual. When the first communicant approaches the altar my
energy and pacing changes.
I bow my head and close my eyes to recenter myself and focus energies.
Without looking to see who is walking the center pillar towards me, I open
myself to being the Goddess that they need. As I raise my eyes to meet
theirs, my goal is to assist and support their gnosis. The channel opens,
energy flows, and the results are sometimes surprising.
One regular congregant consistently evokes a warm mother energy that
seems to say "I love you and approve of you. Let me keep you warm." His
reaction is powerful and personal, bringing gentle tears to his twinkly blue
eyes and a relieved smile to his face. He always gives me an extra special
warm hug and thanks after Mass is done and temple closed.
Men who are experienced Mass Priests usually bring in a raw powerful
sexy Goddess. Their eyes and movements are confident like an experienced
lover. They match and reinforce energy flow quickly. The only communication
typically more powerful is with other Priestesses. Again the energy circuit
is quickly joined. In front of me is my sister and I am a golden mirror. We
are beautiful, powerful, sexy and intimate... familiar.
One last gaze and a kiss from my Priest. The veil is closed. Thank you
for sharing you personal Goddess with me. See you next Mass! |